a Christmas letter

Dear Mom,

It's a cloudy day and I'm in a soulful mood as I write this letter. Days pass by so fast and before we know it, Christmas is here. It's the time when people from far places look forward to see their loved ones once again, and share little blessings to everyone back home. How I wish I also had that kind of feeling, but no matter how happy and contented I am with my present life, I can feel that something is still missing.

Yes, I have heard of what has been happening with you back there. I have seen you and dad in my dreams, too. The only best thing I can do is to pray for you, hoping to bring back the old days I've seen you smile and love each other. My heart bleeds everytime I imagine you guys fight, and your own children giving up on you. I wanted to picture out an old couple relaxing and enjoy seeing their grandchildren grow and living in contentment and a stress-free life. But I guess fate has been too tricky to give you this kind of life. Remember what you shared to me last Christmas? Somehow, I think you have a point. All your sufferings will come to an end, only if you surrender everything to Him. You can look at Him and say, "Yes, I have fulfilled my duty as a wife and mother. I did not fail the vow I made on the day I was married." And I agree. You've been a good wife and mother to your children - and even much against your will, to me. Your patience and great love has been felt by everyone in so many ways we can't imagine. Your 'pangakigs and pagsaways' - name it all, has helped me become a better person. I've been used to that Mom, and I love you for that.

I may have done things which weren't morally right, but I believe that there's still something in store for me. I have been patient enough to wait for the perfect time to open the present, knowing God has a perfect plan for me. I also continue to pray for you, that He may be able to give you the strength and patience you need. As for dad, I hope it's never too late for him to realize the importance of being loveed unconditionally.

I want you to enjoy Christmas without me. Take time to relax and be with your children and grandchildren. As for me, I have to find myself and start picking up the broken pieces of my life. I've sent something of minimal value for you to spend. May peace reign in our hearts and have a blessed Christmas.

With much love from your husband's daughter.