..tOrN bEtWeEn a hAbiT aNd a dReAm..

Blissful days. Dreamy eyes. Feeling of giddiness. These are just symptoms of bein "swept away"..And I'm just as thankful as anyone who are currently having this kind of feeling. It has been 2 years since I got into a relationship full of ups and downs; so I waited..and waited..and waited..And at last, he came. Well, I used to think of him as someone unreachable; wishing I EXIST in his life. After 4 months of waiting with matching indirect stares, finally, I existed. My heart truly leaped for unexplainable joy, thus the friendship started. (I'd rather skip the "kilig" moments- I'll just share it when I'm ready)..I realized that a DREAM is starting to become a REALITY..Constant talks, friendly advices and quotes and the like..He was an answered prayer. But then, just like any DREAM, I have to wake up. If not, I'd really force myself to wake up and face the fact that it can't happen, as much as I really wanted to. I don't want to think that I'll just simply let go and leave everything hanging. So might as well be better to pretend that everything's fine and be hurt down inside. Good thing, somebody's there to catch me. It might not be the person I expected, but indeed, it was someone who has been a part of me. He has been my HABIT, and this time, I'm not so sure if I should go for it or not. That question is left unanswered, and let Father Time guide me to the right path. I'm still waiting..waiting..and hoping..for better days to come.